主题：音乐背后 - Because Of You -- dfindy

我被这首歌感动已经很久，一直有把感想写出来的想法。几天前看见河里有人贴了这首歌的视频，很想就此回帖补充点文字，今天找了一会儿竟没找到，可能贴这首歌的朋友把帖子发到影音动漫之外的版面。

歌曲演唱者和作者是Kelly Clarkson，她是美国王牌电视节目“美国偶像”的首届冠军。我这个人特别讨厌从众，对这种选秀节目天生反感，总觉得得奖者是商业得不能再商业的被包装品，徒有其表但极缺内涵。Kelly Clarkson获奖一两年后我才有机会在开车时听她的歌，听完后觉得这人很有实力，跟我想象的选秀冠军形象很不一样。

后来乱选频道时看了几分钟她的明星访谈，别人问她处对象没有，Kelly的回答是工作太忙没时间。说实话歌星影星这么说话的人很少，Kelly不闪烁其辞，工作投入严肃对待，很实在的一个人。

回头说这首歌。很多脍炙人口的歌大致听几句容易想当然地以为是情歌，但仔细欣赏歌词后会觉得不大对劲，比如大约半年前河里有人介绍的“我是不是你最疼爱的人/你为什么不措辞/握住是你冰凉的手/静也不动让我佳忧伤”，背后的故事比情歌要感人很多。

Because Of You这首歌旋律不是最突出，但听过几遍后觉得歌词很不一般，“I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh， every day of my life ... My heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with"我每天被迫装出笑容... 我的心不会破碎，因为它从来就未曾完整”

我在网上查了完整歌词，一下子就猜出来这首歌的背景。Kelly成名前日子过得很苦，家里穷，年纪不大就开始一边上学一边打工，电影院收票员之类。但比贫穷更难熬的是破碎的家庭生活，父母吵架离异，她妈妈带着她，经常以泪洗面。“I heard you cry, every night in your sleep，I was so young, you should have known better than to lean on me. You never thought of anyone else。You just saw your pain, and now I cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing" 我每夜听你哭泣，你沉醉于你的伤痛，我还幼小，你不该靠我支撑”

这首歌是Kelly自己写的，那时她十六岁。若干年后她请了业内朋友帮忙润色，可是唱片公司很不喜欢这首歌，拒绝把它放到Kelly的第一个专辑，直到两年之后第二张专辑推出时，Kelly才靠着自己已经很高的名气把这首歌放进去，公司方面还是十分勉强不情愿。专辑推出后这首歌获得巨大成功，荣登美国和欧洲流行乐第一的高位。

回头再想她说的工作忙没时间干别的访谈，小时候的路艰难曲折，才会格外珍惜现在的成功。

土豆网视频，拍的很感人，外链出处

以下是完整英文歌词

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I Will not let myself cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did

You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you

I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust

Not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh

Every day of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you

I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust

Not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

I watched you die

I heard you cry

Every night in your sleep

I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry

In the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

Because of you

I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt

Because of you

I tried my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

Because of you

Because of you